Of God and Diapers

This blog deals with God and diapers. It is written for all Christians who have a diaper fixation. It is my hope that all who read it come away a Christian. Despite diapers you can be saved. God loves the Adult Babies too.


I am a Wh/M/31 successful infantilist who was saved in 2002. I feel that God has called me to be a light to the Adult Babies of the world.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Faith and the Law

Romans 3:20,31
For no one can ever be made right in God's sight by doing what his law commands. For the more we know God's law, the clearer it becomes that we aren't obeying it.
31 Well then, if we emphasize faith, does this mean that we can forget about the law? Of course not! In fact, only when we have faith do we truly fulfill the law.

The law. It is a scary thing sometimes. Some Christian sects choose to ignore it completely, but by doing that they minimize their faith. As Paul says in Romans "Only when we have faith do we truly fulfill the law."

This makes a big difference in how we live our lives. Whether we are wearing diapers or not. We must have faith in Jesus and we must use this faith to seek the law and obey it. So for starters here is the number one law. This law I am printing from the Old Testament. You may notice that Jesus said this exact thing. He wasn't making it up, he knew it by heart.

The number one commandment, Jesus pointed this out in the New Testament
Deuteronomy 6:5
You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might.

The Ten Commandments Exodus 20:2-17

1. Do not worship any other gods besides me.

2. Do not make idols of any kind, whether in the shape of birds or animals or fish. 5You must never worship or bow down to them, for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God who will not share your affection with any other god! I do not leave unpunished the sins of those who hate me, but I punish the children for the sins of their parents to the third and fourth generations. But I lavish my love on those who love me and obey my commands, even for a thousand generations.

3. Do not misuse the name of the LORD your God. The LORD will not let you go unpunished if you misuse his name.

4. Remember to observe the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. Six days a week are set apart for your daily duties and regular work, but the seventh day is a day of rest dedicated to the LORD your God. On that day no one in your household may do any kind of work. This includes you, your sons and daughters, your male and female servants, your livestock, and any foreigners living among you. For in six days the LORD made the heavens, the earth, the sea, and everything in them; then he rested on the seventh day. That is why the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and set it apart as holy.

5. Honor your father and mother. Then you will live a long, full life in the land the LORD your God will give you.

6. Do not murder.

7. Do not commit adultery.

8. Do not steal.

9. Do not testify falsely against your neighbor.

10. Do not covet your neighbor's house. Do not covet your neighbor's wife, male or female servant, ox or donkey, or anything else your neighbor owns.

It is not hard to follow these. Sometimes we want to do the exact opposite. We want to covet our neighbor and worship another God. BUT DON'T. These laws are perfect and are ment to be followed. Even with having your sin forgiven we still need to obey.

If you want to think about how to live your life, being nice really does make a difference. Being nice to those who are evil works even better. I leave with this:

Ephesians 4:31
31 Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. 32 Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Do Not Serve Two Masters

Let this post check you. Read the following:

Mt 6:24
"No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and wealth.

It is IMPERATIVE that God be your only master. You might think by reading this blog that I have 2 masters because the title is "Of God and Diapers" but that is wrong. The reason why the association is there is because I have had issues with them in the past. It is OK to admit that you have two masters. But once you recognize this you need to change. It has to be ALL God that you serve. Diapers are an analogy. They represent money, the things of the world, lust and anything that separates you from God. I admit diapers are not godly at all. It is my belief that they will disappear from my memory when I go to heaven.

See, I have changed my master to be God and God alone. I still wear and use diapers from time to time, but that is only because of the Law of Liberty I spoke of earlier. It is not because I feel like if I don't I will be punished. This goes into what the definition of master is:

Master: The to whom a person or thing belongs, about which he has power of deciding; master, lord
the possessor and disposer of a thing
the owner; one who has control of the person, the master
in the state: the sovereign, prince, chief, the Roman emperor
is a title of honour expressive of respect and reverence, with which servants greet their master
this title is given to: God, the Messiah

Do diapers control you?
Do diapers own you?
Do diapers have power over you?
Do you have reverence for diapers?
Do you believe diapers can save you?

If you answered yes to any of these questions then diapers have become your master. RIP them from your life. You are not ready to wear diapers in freedom. You must quit wearing, destroy them and discard them. You are now "hating the one" master.

This passage says you cannot serve two masters. It is there to point out the hypocrisy of having two masters. The hypocrisy is seen by the person trying to serve both opposing masters. It is impossible. Now, it is time to change your mind. It is easy. You have to give yourself to God alone. Pray for this. Pray to God that you have renounced diapers as your master. Ask Him to guide you and He will.

You are thinking: So why do you still wear diapers if they are not your master?

The answer is that God has put diapers in my life to humble me so that I may serve him alone. I have seen that the reason I wear diapers is so that I will not become prideful. God has blessed me by humbling me. He knows my allegiance is to Him and not diapers. Diapers are just a tool and not my master. I feel bad because I have not been wearing them like I used to. When I was 24/7 I was the most humblest of persons. This is because I was completely dependant on God for protection from the world. I was broken so that God could direct me.

So as you look at your life, try to think about what you think you have accomplished. Think about everything and come to the conclusion that from God all good things come. Quit fighting God's will and you will find that life becomes so much easier.

Luke 17:33
"Whoever seeks to keep his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it."

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

How To Stop Being Afraid

Today's message is on something that not only Adult Babies experience but the whole world experiences. It is a disabling condition that causes people to remain where they are and not improve their situation in life. It is a condition that causes people to not step up and do the right thing. It is a condition that causes illness and disease and is thought to be incurable. This condition is called: Fear.
Possible symptoms of fear are:
1. Not asking someone on a date
2. Not telling someone that you are different from them
3. Trying to be like everyone else even though you are not
4. Trying to hide the things that make you different
5. Not trying to join a new club or school even though you want to

And the list can go on and on. Something I discovered when I went 24/7 was that I was afraid of so much. I had fear everywhere. Something I noticed also was that in other areas of my life I had no fear. For example I can get up on stage in front of a thousand people and wail on guitar and think nothing of it. Then when it comes to asking a girl out I am terrified. So now, here is a quote:

"The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself." - Winston Churchill

As far as diaper wearing I know many people are afraid of getting "caught". To begin with, that is a bad mindset to have. To be "caught" at something implies that you are doing something wrong. Wearing diapers is not wrong. So it is not the getting "caught" that you should be afraid of, it is getting "noticed". So before you can even face your fears you have to understand that wearing diapers is not wrong on a personal level. If you think any aspect of wearing diapers is wrong, then when you try to stand up for it, you will fall.

Now that you accept this as completely normal, then it becomes time to face your fears. Those three words are terrifying in themselves: "Face your fears." That means that in order for you to progress and get past all of the issues associated with this lifestyle you need to do things you otherwise would not do. For instance, I went 24/7. I had so much fear about that but I felt such a calling to do so that overrode my fear. Sometimes, you know it is for the best so you do it. I am telling you, I was never scared in my whole life as I was when I was going 24/7. There were moments when it felt like my heart stopped. Like when I stood up in an airplane and pulled a diaper out of my bag and went to the restroom to change with a diaper in hand and 100 people staring at me. It took so much guts I couldn't believe I was capable of that. If you would've told me months earlier that I would be doing that I would have told you you were crazy.

So how did I get to that point? The key in getting past a fear is to not think about it entirely. For instance, when I was a kid I wanted to walk on the roof. I had a ladder but was afraid of falling, even though I wanted to go to the roof. So in order to do it I had to think about each step and be semi-afraid about going up one step. It was only one step, why be afraid about moving up just one step? So I started taking it one step at a time. In the end there I was, on top of the ladder waiting to take the leap off of the ladder onto the roof. Then I realized where I was. I had climbed up the entire ladder with a little fear in my heart. It wasn't as bad as my fear had made it out to be. So I was now terrified about making the leap. The good news was that I had practiced on the steps. I knew what fear was and I knew that even though I was afraid that I could still do it. So I leapt. I landed on the roof and had a good time running on the roof. In going down the ladder my fear had almost diminished, but it was still there. I then realized that I had conquered my fear. I had one and didn't let it control me.

You see, there is a whole world out there that is past your fears. Sometimes all that is needed is to take just little baby steps. If you are afraid of the big moment of asking a girl out because it would be a "date" then start with asking girls who are just friends to go out as just friends. Think about this - they are just like us, they have fear and can be afraid as well. If you are afraid of wearing diapers in public, then just wear plastic pants under your clothes to get used to overcoming this fear.

I never realized that any fear that is not a fear of God is wrong. You should not fear others, you should not fear evil, you should not fear being noticed in diapers. It is this fear that keeps us so closed in. The devil wants us to fear everything. Fear paralyzes and keeps us from standing up for God. It keeps us from standing out of the crowd. Do you think Paul feared being stoned? He may have, but it was removed by his love for God and his willingness to give up his life for something he believed in.

So as I leave you with the fear scriptures I say this. Get past all of your fears. You only have one chance here on Earth to accomplish all that you desire and then it is over. You can accomplish great things on Earth if you just get past your fear. Do it now.

Ps 111:10 -
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; A good understanding have all those who do His commandments; His praise endures forever.

Ps 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

MAthew 10:25 - 28
25 "It is enough for the disciple that he become like his teacher, and the slave like his master. If they have called the head of the house Beelzebul, how much more will they malign the members of his household! 26 "Therefore do not fear them, for there is nothing concealed that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. 27 "What I tell you in the darkness, speak in the light; and what you hear whispered in your ear, proclaim upon R359 the housetops. 28 "Do not fear those who kill the body but are unable to kill the soul; but rather fear R360 Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

Lu 12:7 -
"Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.

Friday, December 09, 2005

I have become all things to all men, so that I may by all means save some.

I am not out to hurt or judge anyone. I find it odd how non-religious people think that religious people hate them. No where in our doctrine is there a commandment that says "hate those who are different from you" I think there might have been some oddballs on both sides of the isle who decided to fight instead of love. I can see that and we are now all polarized. It's like the rules of the first date "No Religion, No Politics" because people who have made up their mind can't be swayed and will argue their point until they are blue. It's like, you either do believe or you don't, Which is true. The problem arises when both groups decide that people who don't believe like them are oppressing them and hate them.

So what can one do to get these groups to stop hating? Since we Christians are all grouped together in the eyes of the non-Christians there is a passage that makes sense:

1 Corinthians 9:19-23
19 For though I am free from all men, I have made myself a slave to all, so that I may win more. 20 To the Jews I became as a Jew, so that I might win Jews; to those who are under the Law, as under the Law though not being myself under the Law, so that I might win those who are under the Law; 21 to those who are without law, as without law, though not being without the law of God but under the law of Christ, so that I might win those who are without law. 22 To the weak I became weak, that I might win the weak; I have become all things to all men, so that I may by all means save some. 23 I do all things for the sake of the gospel, so that I may become a fellow partaker of it.

You see there are many different types of Christians. They all serve different purposes much like appendages. One group might be like an arm that is strong and unwavering. Another group might be like an eye that is forever watchful for Jesus. Another group might be like a heart that puts caring and loving above some of their doctrine. We all have different purposes in Christ. The passage above though shows that we need to be Loving others and put aside our differences. Matter of fact I think it evens gives us a command to conform to their beliefs as long as it doesn't conflict with Jesus. For example I can easily walk into a bar, have a drink and talk about Jesus. There is no conflict. I can easily walk into a casino, bet on blackjack and talk about Jesus. In the Adult Baby community I can easily go into a party wearing just a diaper and talk about Jesus. He is everywhere. Jesus even said:

Matthew 9:9-13
9 As Jesus went on from there, He saw a man called Matthew, sitting in the tax collector's booth; and He said to him, "Follow Me!" And he got up and followed Him. 10 Then it happened that as Jesus was reclining at the table in the house, behold, many tax collectors and sinners came and were dining with Jesus and His disciples. 11 When the Pharisees saw this, they said to His disciples, "Why is your Teacher eating with the tax collectors and sinners?" 12 But when Jesus heard this, He said, "It is not those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick. 13 "But go and learn what this means: `I DESIRE COMPASSION, AND NOT SACRIFICE,' for I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners."

So what are some oddball Christians doing? They are making sure that they don't ever see or hear anything that is not of Christ. They are the super-fundamentalists that live in a vacuum. The problem with that is this:

Matthew 28:18-20
18 And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, "All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. 19 "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

So we Christians need to be out there in the world. We have to hold fast to our beliefs because we are no longer of this world. But we still have to be in the world. We need to conform to those things that do not matter and not conform to the things that are against Jesus's teachings. It takes a wise man to know what doesn't matter.

So what can we do to get past this stigma? We must be loud in our acceptance of others. We must be loud in the beliefs that we share with the world. It is then, and only then when the world will become interested in our faith. That is when we introduce them to Jesus and give the world something to believe in.

So what about the Christians who believe differently than I do? That is completely acceptable. Matter of fact, while I do put my beliefs in this blog they are not 100% correct. I cannot know what is or isn't correct, but I have faith that the Holy Spirit has led me to my beliefs and is still guiding and teaching me. Who knows? I could completely reverse all of my positions and if the Holy Spirit leads me to do it I will trust Him and not feel bad at all. Maybe you are here, reading this, and are finally understanding that Christianity, while simple in its doctrines has a lot of leeway and is all encompassing of the world. All you need to do is accept Jesus Christ as your Resurrected Lord and Savior with all of your heart and mind. DO IT NOW

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Understanding The Biblical Equation of Love

This a quick lesson today, but it involves something very important to all Christians. It is about getting to the Truth and Meaning of the Bible. How many non-Christians have you heard say,"But whose translation is correct?" "Isn't it just a matter of interpreting it different?" and such they will dismiss the whole Bible. I am not going to go into the validity of the Bible but I just have to say that it is the Holy Spirit that leads us into the correct translation, because once a person is a Christian the Holy Spirit is there to guide and comfort us.

Now this lesson has to deal with semantics. It is very important when talking with other Christians to fully understand the following verse, and also to fully understand how it has nothing to do with being an Adult Baby.

1 Corinthians 13:11
When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things.

Just by reading one sentence people assume that they understand the message. It sometimes works when that sentence is the summary sentence in a paragraph, but in this situation that passage is NOT a summary sentence. Matter of fact it is actually an allegory and parallels what Paul is trying to say about SPIRITUAL GIFTS and not about being childish. Here is the full context:

1 Corinthians 13:8-13
8 Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part; 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. 13 But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

OK, read that over and over and over again. Lay out the parallels to each sentence. It seems disjointed in English, but as it become known this is what you will discover. Paul is talking about Spiritual Gifts in this whole passage. Now I know that some Churches believe in speaking in Tongues and Prophecy, but if you read this over and over you will realize that Paul takes away these gifts and leaves only 3 gifts left: faith, hope and love.

Here is the equation(notice how Love is the beginning and ending):

A = Love never fails;

B = When I was a Child (In Christ):
if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away = reason like a child
if there are tongues, they will cease = I used to speak like a child
if there is knowledge, it will be done away = think like a child, now I know in part
now we see in a mirror dimly

C = When I became a Man (In Christ):
I did away with childish things(the gifts).
then we see face to face
then I will know fully

D = But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

A = C - B = D

So you see. This whole passage is about how Love is the greatest and never fails. It has nothing to do a lesson in putting away childish things. Paul just says as a fact that he put away childish things when he became a man. He never tells us that we need to do the same. It might just be assumed, but the problem happens when people use that as an excuse to not be like a child. I leave you with a paragraph of why Jesus says we should be like a child:

Mark 10:13-16
13 And they were bringing children to Him so that He might touch them; but the disciples rebuked them. 14 But when Jesus saw this, He was indignant and said to them, "Permit the children to come to Me; do not hinder them; for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 15 "Truly I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child will not enter it at all." 16 And He took them in His arms and began blessing them, laying His hands on them.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Praise the Lord, We Are Free In Christ!

This week I would like to give a big bible session and talk about the passages as they relate to Adult Babies and Diaper wearing. It relates to everything, but since that is our main focus these passages fit in nicely. Salvation in Jesus is key to understanding these. You must believe in Jesus Christ as God's only begotten Son who was a Living Sacrifice for all of your sin in order to truly understand the point of most of these.

The first one is for those whose are struggling. God does not want you to struggle. If you have "quit" and have been struggling for years, think about how your heart is troubled and realize that you need to change your heart. Sometimes the only way to change it is to go back to diapers. But realize this - going back to diapers is something you have to have complete faith in that it a not a sin. Otherwise your own conscience will condemn you.

John 14:25-27
25 "These things I have spoken to you while abiding with you. 26 "But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you. 27 "Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.

This next passage is also on worry and how we should not worry about sin anymore. Especially "CLOTHING" and in the end that is all a diaper is, clothing.
Matthew 6:25-34
25 "For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 "Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 "And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 28 "And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29 yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30 "But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31 "Do not worry then, saying, `What will we eat?' or `What will we drink?' or `What will we wear for clothing?' 32 "For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

The next passage is a liberty passage. Really, all things are lawful. Make sure you understand that to its fullest potential before you relieve your physical discomfort. And make sure it is God dominating your life and not diapers.
1 Corinthians 6:12
12 "All things are lawful for me," but not all things are beneficial. "All things are lawful for me," but I will not be dominated by anything.

The next passage is another liberty passage. Hmmm, I used to think diapers and masturb made me ritualistically unclean and a sinner. By just thinking like that it became true. So what I say is this - you must truly believe in all your heart that your faith in the mercy of God through Jesus saves you completely. In order to do that you must truly believe that diaper wearing/using does not make you unclean.
Romans 14:14,22
14 I know and am persuaded in the Lord Jesus that nothing is unclean in itself; but it is unclean for anyone who thinks it unclean.
22 The faith that you have, have as your own conviction before God. Blessed are those who have no reason to condemn themselves because of what they approve. 23 But those who have doubts are condemned if they eat, because they do not act from faith; for whatever does not proceed from faith is sin.

Here it is. This is the passage where wikipedia references as supporting Infantilism even though they can't seem to find it. It is basically about how even though Joshua was wearing dirty clothes before God and Satan it was God that rebuked Satan for going after him. Then the Lord had the angels CHANGE Joshua's clothes just like a babies. That is the ritual. And that is why taken to an extreme diaper wearing and using and being changed by someone else is symbolic of God taking our guilt away from us. (It is a stretch but it does fit).
Zechariah 3:1-5
1 Then he showed me the high priest Joshua standing before the angel of the LORD, and Satan standing at his right hand to accuse him. 2And the LORD said to Satan, "The LORD rebuke you, O Satan! The LORD who has chosen Jerusalem rebuke you! Is not this man a brand plucked from the fire?" 3Now Joshua was dressed with filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. 4The angel said to those who were standing before him, "Take off his filthy clothes." And to him he said, "See, I have taken your guilt away from you, and I will clothe you with festal apparel." 5And I said, "Let them put a clean turban on his head." So they put a clean turban on his head and clothed him with the apparel; and the angel of the LORD was standing by.

The next passages show that it was Jesus set an example of 2 things - cleanliness and servitude. Jesus cleansed the disciples feet and them from their sin and he also showed how we should serve each other in spreading the message of Salvation.
John 13:12-17
12 After he had washed their feet, had put on his robe, and had returned to the table, he said to them, "Do you know what I have done to you? 13 You call me Teacher and Lord - and you are right, for that is what I am. 14 So if I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another's feet. 15 For I have set you an example, that you also should do as I have done to you. 16 Very truly, I tell you, servants F109 are not greater than their master, nor are messengers greater than the one who sent them. 17 If you know these things, you are blessed if you do them.

This next passage talks about how Peter was shown in a vision that it was OK for Jewish Christians to eat meat that wasn't kosher. This deals in diapers in that it shows how God is all things to all people so that EVERYONE can be saved, even Adult Babies.
Acts 11:2,6-9
2So when Peter went up to Jerusalem, the circumcised believersb criticized him, 3saying, "Why did you go to uncircumcised men and eat with them?"
6As I looked at it closely I saw four-footed animals, beasts of prey, reptiles, and birds of the air. 7I also heard a voice saying to me, 'Get up, Peter; kill and eat.' 8But I replied, 'By no means, Lord; for nothing profane or unclean has ever entered my mouth.' 9But a second time the voice answered from heaven, 'What God has made clean, you must not call profane.'
This passage deals with how we can become clean through the blood of Jesus Christ. We should have confidence in it. I am sure that if you believe you are going to hell because you like diapers then you are NOT saved. You MUST believe you are going to heaven because you believe Jesus was God's sacrifice for ALL your unclean sin. You must add your AB/DL behavior to the list of what God has made clean.
Hebrews 10:19-25
19 Therefore, my friends, since we have confidence to enter the sanctuary by the blood of Jesus, 20 by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain (that is, through his flesh), 21 and since we have a great priest over the house of God, 22 let us approach with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. 23 Let us hold fast to the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who has promised is faithful. 24 And let us consider how to provoke one another to love and good deeds, 25 not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

Study those passages. Think about them. Pray about them. Now do you really think if you wear diapers for fun until the day you die that it means anything at all to God? Personally, I see freedom in Christ. I see that Loving God and Serving Others is paramount to everything. For instance you might just think of me as a normal AB like you. But what if I told you I was a philanthropist and gave to the poor, and even fed the poor. If my loving actions and servant character make a difference in just how you perceive me think about what a difference it makes to God. Try and be like Jesus and Love God and all other laws will fall into place without having to worry. Praise The Lord!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Let God's Love Illuminate Your Closet

Here is the post. The post where I spill the beans so to speak and get to the heart of being brave about God and diapers. I think it is obvious by my writings that I am obsessed about them. Something to note is that in real life I also am full of fear. Fear is only a good thing when it is a fear of God. All other fear is not needed.

For the past 4 weeks I have been doing what we in the ABDL community call "24/7" which means I always wear diapers. To bed, to work, to church and hanging around my friends. It is now a legitimate lifestyle. I think God has really lead me into this state to teach me a lesson or to get me out of my repressive shell. I also recently went on a business trip to Prague. I posted the following post of my adventures:

I've been 24/7 for four weeks straight so far and am still loving it. The only part I feel uncomfortable about is changing my diaper at work. Lately I've been wearing abena at work and haven't been changing for over 10 hours. I know I need to get past this, just because 10 hours in a wet diaper is bound to give me a rash. The technique I use:

1. Abena - really does hold 10 hours of pee
2. Diaper elastic - basically go to walmart and get those strips of elastic from the fabric section and get some diaper pins. I created 2 belts that are very tight and are held together with the diaper pins. I don't even have to undo the pins, because they are elastic I can pull the 2 belts on over the diaper tapes - Thus their tightness will hold the diaper together even if the tapes fail(abenas tapes sometimes do). When I change I pull the belts up to my chest so they are out of the way.
3. Plastic pants - makes the diaper produce no noise whatsoever and helps prevent leaks
4. Onesie - holds the diaper up, also prevents the diaper from sticking out of the top of my pants. I think a coworker might've got a good look one time when I wasn't wearing a onesie(hasn't said anything)
5. Long untucked shirts - they hide leaks if they occur (hasn't happened yet)
6. Dark jeans or Dockers stain proof - hides leaks if they occur

The only problem is that plastic pants over diapers can cause a rash. The only way to prevent it is to change every 5 hours instead of 10. And that is why I need to accept that I might get noticed when I bring a gym bag to my cube and the bathroom. I don't poo either, I choose to do it whenever I change my diaper. However I think as a result I've become a little constipated, but that's another story.

After I worked out all of the logistics I can say that wearing all of the time definitely has its advantages. For me, it just feels like I should have been doing this all along. They are just a different type of underwear and they feel oh so comfortable. For the longest time (24 years) I desired to be normal so much that I hid everything. I even had low self esteem for fear of discovery. When I finally truly accepted who I was I was able to quit wearing underwear and wear diapers whenever I wanted. I should've done this years ago. My thoughts are either I will accept it as my lifestyle or I will get sick of it and quit altogether. Right now complete acceptance seems to be the way to go. I recommend trying 24/7 for those of you struggling with personal acceptance. I've tried many techniques of 24/7 as well:
1. Just peeing all of the time in them
2. Going to the potty as well (didn't like that)
3. Hiding my diapers in my car and going to get them and finding a bathroom away from work to change(too much work)

I've been all over in diapers now. I went to Prague a couple of weeks ago and had to change on the airplane. That was the biggest hurdle for me. Standing up, pulling out my overhead bag and pulling out a fresh diaper and baby powder. I did it and went into the bathroom and changed. The bathroom was in the middle of the plane so there were about 100 people looking at me as I was trying to figure out how to open the bathroom door. I put the wet one in the trash in the bathroom. Basically I was scared soo much before I did it. I had to psych myself up to do it. I told myself over and over things like "They already know, they already know" and "you don't know them anyways" and "They'll feel sorry for you instead of make fun of you." and "If you don't change you will be in physical pain from a rash." That was when my diaper started feeling so uncomfortable I got up and did it.

That week I even went into pharmacies and tried to buy diapers. Apparently people in Prague don't wear diapers. Finally I went to the counter, took out the side of my diaper from the pants and pointed at it to show the lady what I wanted. She was nice enough to get me some tenas and put it in a clear bag and put newspapers around it so I wouldn't be embarassed as I went back to the hotel on the trams. I walked all throughout Prague with a case of diapers and it was very liberating. In the end I realized that I could not help enjoying diapers and I should not stop. It makes no difference to most people anyways. I am the one wearing diapers not them. They might laugh but I must accept the good with the bad. So far, so good.
So now you get an idea of what I have been going through. Just this morning God gave me some scripture to ponder about being brave:
Jeremiah 20:9
But if I say, “I will not mention him or speak any more in his name,”
his word is in my heart like a burning fire, shut up in my bones,
I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.

You see what He is telling me. I can no longer hold who I really am inside. God and Diapers are in my heart like a burning fire. I have accepted Jesus has my Lord and Savior and I have accepted diapers as a lifestyle. I can no longer hold any of it in. It is time to stop being so afraid. I must say to myself the following "mantras" so to speak. The things which I repeat over and over will serve to psych me up so that I will be prepared for any persecution to come my way.

"I am a Christian. I must not fear condemnation from others"
"I must not fear what others think of me."
"I must not fear changing in the restroom or noises the changing makes."
"I will die a Christian who wears diapers."
"If people ask me about what's in my bag it is none of their business."
"If they straight out ask me if I wear diapers it is none of their business."
"If people hear me change or see me leak than that is life and I must not be afraid."
"I can no longer hide the fact that I wear diapers and am a Christian."
"If my family doesn't accept me then that is their problem and not mine."
"If I lose friends then they were never friends to begin with."
"They Already Know or suspect."
"I cannot be caught as I am doing nothing wrong. All I can be is noticed."
"As long as I am true to myself and true to God all other judgement is not valid."

The world is full of different people trying to find happiness in their own way or the same way as their parents and friends. We all have to live together. But we also have to be happy in doing so. I have built diapers up in my mind way too much and have lived in fear. Secrets are not good. The light of God shines through the darkness and exposes them. Since I am doing nothing wrong it is time to let God's light shine. The devil has lead me to darkness and separated me from God. I no longer desire for that to be. I know I will be persecuted, but at least I will be myself. See I should not fear the light. If I fear the light then I live in darkness. Is your diaper wearing a secret? Do you know that that secret is in darkness and Satan will bind you to it. You don't have to go on like this. Let God's light shine in all areas of your life, pray for guidance and He will lead you on the right path.

Psalm 27:1
The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread?

John 3:20
For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.

Mathew 10:26-28
"Therefore do not fear them, for there is nothing concealed that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. 27 "What I tell you in the darkness, speak in the light; and what you hear whispered in your ear, proclaim upon the housetops. 28 "Do not fear those who kill the body but are unable to kill the soul; but rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

1 Corinthians 4:5
Therefore do not go on passing judgment before the time, but wait until the Lord comes who will both bring to light the things hidden in the darkness and disclose the motives of men's hearts; and then each man's praise will come to him from God.

Psalm 112:4
4 Light arises in the darkness for the upright; He is gracious and compassionate and righteous.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Adult Diapers Should Not Make You Guilty

This week's message is on something that all of us AB/DLs have felt. That feeling is guilt. I remember when I was a kid I used to enjoy diapers and then after it was over I felt guilty. A lot of it has to do with the first lesson we ever learned. That lesson is Potty Training. The guilt we feel stems from a subconscious desire to appease our parents. Potty training is intense. Some techniques almost border on brainwashing. Only in the past 10 years has child psychologists recognised this and have taken a relaxed approach to training. Basically we have an opposing dynamic. Our hearts desire love from our parents. Our bodies desire physical comfort - for example a hug. In our case these desires opposed one another. Now if we are to appease our parents and society(religions and governments), it makes simple sense that we will do what they say and expect comfort/reward from our obedience. It is like a child who wants praise for going in the potty. It is a system based on works alone. It is my belief that the infantilist who develops this condition during childhood has not had the emotional comfort that he or she required, otherwise, why desire something you already have?

So the self actualized solution is that we solve our own comfort problem when comfort is lacking; even if it opposes our assumptions about the reward/comfort system. If our parents don't give us the attention we feel we need, we must make up for it somehow. That goes into another question our hearts might have - how do I get comfort? Does comfort from any physical attention or is it from objects that are comfortable? Man, blessed be the extrovert, for all will know his psyche. In such a situation an extrovert will do things to get any kind of attention, even bad things as long as someone notices them (ex. bullies). Introverts on the other hand are stuck trying to get comfort without asking for it. That is when diapers come into play.

I've analyzed this. How in the world do kids know that diapers are comfortable? The first thing we consciously learn is that they should feel yucky and only babies wear diapers cause they are yucky. I convinced a friend to wear diapers one time and he said they didn't feel comfortable to him. So how did we subconsciously decide that diapers were comfortable before we ever wore them? I can't answer it completely. The answer is too complex. Commercials, memories, influences, visual, auditory sensations, smells, experiences, our own sensitivities. All of these things in a certain combination will lead a child to believe that diapers are comfortable. And once the child experiences diapers firsthand their perceptions can become reality. It is a reverse potty training psychology. If something is believed to be true, even before experiencing it, it will become true in the person's mind. Even if the belief is opposite of the reality. However it takes such a strong belief in the opposite dynamic that infantilism rarely occurs. Thus there are only around 15,000 known ABDLs in the English speaking computer using world.

Now we have given a basis for the two opposing factors that cause guilt from infantilism: parental/societal appeasement vs our own appeasement of lack of comfort. Ok, lets be real here. Many people still feel guilt. It is so embedded in our psyches that we naturally feel guilty just because we feel we are wronging society or God by not going in the potty. I have successfully gotten rid of my guilt feelings because I had to come to some conclusions:

1. I deserve to be comfortable just because I am human.
2. Society and Parents cannot give me the comfort I need.
3. I must accept that I am different and it is good to be different.
4. Diaper Guilt comes from society and the devil and not God.
5. God forgives all Christian sinners anyways. Jesus Christ was our Guilt Offering.

Now that I have segued into God let's talk about what the Bible says about guilt. The Greek word for guilt is pronounced "Aitia" which means "cause for which one is worthy of punishment, crime". Just by the definition alone we can see that by believing we are crossing the lines of the rational that we are worthy of punishment for just the act of wearing a diaper.

The premise of our guilt is wrong. I know the biblical narratives deal with true guilt, but you have to remember this. Just because you feel guilty does not mean you are guilty. It is a hard distinction to make because sometimes we do feel guilty because of God's natural law put into our hearts:

Romans 2:14 For when Gentiles who do not have the Law do instinctively the things of the Law, these, not having the Law, are a law to themselves, 15 in that they show the work of the Law written in their hearts, their conscience bearing witness and their thoughts alternately accusing or else defending them, 16 on the day when, according to my gospel, God will judge the secrets of men through Christ Jesus.

Now if that passage doesn't make you think that your guilt is true guilt I don't know what will. But now we do have to take a step back. Does our guilt come from God or Man, or even, dare I say it, Satan? Is this true guilt that has no judgement? Meaning, if God were to judge us guilty would it be because we think we are guilty of a sin, or we actually are guilty of the sin.

We can control our conscience. We can control our hearts. The same way you accepted Jesus Christ into your life. The same way you love God and changed your heart for him. That is the same way you can accept into your heart your diaper wearing and receive physical peace and comfort by God's grace. I said earlier that the just because you feel guilty does not mean you are guilty. Here is the kicker, that is only true in an esoteric sense. Our God is god of the heart. If you feel guilty - you are guilty. You must remove the guilt. If you decide to continue wearing diapers, STOP FEELING GUILTY ABOUT IT. For if you do not stop feeling guilty you will be judged by it. Your own conscience will accuse you of a sin. If you change your ways and stop feeling guilty then your own conscience will defend your diaper wearing.

So how do you stop feeling guilty? We feel guilty because of one thing - we recieved earthly judgement from ourselves or someone else. So if you want to remove guilt, stop judging yourself and stop making people's judgements of you feel guilty. Memorize the following verse and bring it up whenever you feel guilty. Eventually you will stop feeling guilty and be humbled at the grace and glory of God through Jesus Christ. It is one thing to feel guilty. It is another thing to be freed from all sin. Simply because this freedom removes all judgement and guilt from our life. In the end those things that we cling to that are of this earth, like diapers, will burn in fire and will be wiped away from history. So why worry?

1 Corinthians 4:3 But it is a small thing to me that I am judged by you or by man's judging; I am not even a judge of myself.

A Great Bible Study on Guilt

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Judgement and Diapers

Faith. Hope. Love. These things are self-evident. They are clear to every human on earth. Before you take a step you need a foot. Before you take a step you need a leg to stand on. In talking with many non believers and seeing how they formulate their own beliefs I have to ask: Are humans capable of complete non belief. It is kind of hard to grasp but I want you to think for a moment. It's like that Rush song,"If you choose not to decide you still have made a choice." What kinds of things do you know about Christians? What are your beliefs about our beliefs. Sometimes those things which you believe are the same as what we believe for the bible says:

Deuteronomy 30:11-17
11 "For this commandment which I command you today is not too mysterious for you, nor is it far off. 12It is not in heaven, that you should say, "Who will ascend into heaven for us and bring it to us, that we may hear it and do it?' 13Nor is it beyond the sea, that you should say, "Who will go over the sea for us and bring it to us, that we may hear it and do it?' 14But the word is very near you, in your mouth and in your heart, that you may do it.
15"See, I have set before you today life and good, death and evil, 16in that I command you today to love the LORD your God, to walk in His ways, and to keep His commandments, His statutes, and His judgments, that you may live and multiply; and the LORD your God will bless you in the land which you go to possess.

Other times those beliefs are wrong. A man who is not of God does not know God. For instance to speak against Christians and say that we hate instead of love is to inject a personal bias without investigations or with supreme judgement. It is an odd circular logic that non-believers and believers live in. Christians are told by Jesus not to judge one another. A non believer will Judge a christian and say that we are judging one another because of the non-believer's belief in what we believe. What this shows us is that even non-believers have knowledge of Christianity yet choose to deny it as something to believe in. But whenever their needs get suited they choose to prove how Christian's are not Christians even though they really don't know what it is really like to be a Christian. If they did, it is my belief they would stay a Christian.

It seems that Christian judgement is more important to non=believers than Faith, Hope, and Love. If someone feels judged they get defensive and feel attacked. It's not a matter of if they actually ARE judged but if they FEEL judged. I have never heard any good church condemn anyone to death, except of course for it's own members.

Acts 5:1-11
1 But a certain man named Ananias, with Sapphira, his wife, sold a possession, 2 and kept back part of the price, his wife also being aware of it, and brought a certain part, and laid it at the apostles' feet. 3 But Peter said, "Ananias, why has Satan filled your heart to lie to the Holy Spirit, and to keep back part of the price of the land? 4 While you kept it, didn't it remain your own? After it was sold, wasn't it in your power? How is it that you have conceived this thing in your heart? You haven't lied to men, but to God." 5 Ananias, hearing these words, fell down and died. Great fear came on all who heard these things.

What I am trying to say is that sometimes people do get judged by Christians and to non-believers that is enough to be dissuaded. Take heart, because by believing in Jesus Christ we escape judgement. I can state unequivocally that if I were to die today as a Christian my diaper wearing(if a sin) would be wiped away from time. All of my sins have been forgiven, past, present and future because I have complete faith and trust in Jesus Christ, my one true master. There is no need to call my sins out because they are washed away by the blood of Jesus Christ. I spoke in another passage about this, but it is important when one talks about Judgement.

So why the topic of Judgement? Simply because as a Diaper Wearer one of the big questions we ask is ,"Will we be judged as being sexually immoral and therefore not inherit the kingdom of heaven." I know I worry a little about that when I see the passages:

1 Co 5:9 - I wrote to you in my epistle not to keep company with sexually immoral people.

1 Co 5:10 - Yet I certainly did not mean with the sexually immoral people of this world, or with the covetous, or extortioners, or idolaters, since then you would need to go out of the world.

1 Co 5:11 - But now I have written to you not to keep company with anyone named a brother, who is sexually immoral, or covetous, or an idolater, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or an extortioner--not even to eat with such a person.

Re 21:8 - But the cowardly, unbelieving, abominable, murderers, sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars shall have their part in the lake which burns with fire and brimstone, which is the second death."

Re 22:15 - But outside are dogs and sorcerers and sexually immoral and murderers and idolaters, and whoever loves and practices a lie.

It scares me to think that wearing diapers and masturbating is sexually immoral. I think we need to define what sexually immoral is to understand what is literally being said. Sometimes your really have to get to the bottom of things in order to find the truth. All of the translations out there sometimes lose or gain meaning based on the translation. In this case it has gained meaning.

Here is the Greek word that is originally written down for the translation of sexually immoral:
- a man who prostitutes his body to another's lust for hire
- a male prostitute
- a man who indulges in unlawful sexual intercourse, a fornicator
This greek word has an origin from:
Piprasko(to sell) which means sold under sin, entirely under the control of the love of sinning

Ok, before I go into it I have to say a few precursor's. These passages deal with inheriting the Kingdom of heaven. Jesus says in John 3:16 Those that believeth in me shall not perish but have everlasting life. Jesus also says they sexually immoral will not inherit the kingdom of heaven. It seems like an Addendum to John 3:16. Like we should be doing both. Like I said before, Jesus came and gave us Laws of the Heart and the Law of Liberty. Does a man who prostitutes himself have a good heart? What kind of love is it when that happens? It is a love of money and a love of the flesh. Even the origin of this word is the love of sinning. God is nowhere in that transaction. Even in "unlawful sexual intercourse" the love is still the love of the flesh.

Therefore if you wear diapers and masturbate in them because you have a love of sinning and you ARE CONTROLLED by them then you have another master besides God.

Mt 6:24
"No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to one, and despise the other. You can't serve both God and Wealth."

In conclusion, in order to be christian and wear diapers for enjoyment you must be absolutely sure that God is controlling you and not your desires of the flesh. That is soo hard to do, but it is something we must do to stay on the right path. Sometimes we fall for the mind is willing and the flesh is weak. But we must remember that even if we "fall" that we do not fall under the complete control of our flesh. We must serve our one true master. If Diapers become our master then we have truly fallen and love not one another but our own flesh.

Galatians 5:13-14
13 You, my brothers, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love. 14 The entire law is summed up in a single command: "Love your neighbor as yourself."

1 John 2:15-17
15 Don't love the world, neither the things that are in the world. If anyone loves the world, the Father's love isn't in him. 16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, isn't the Father's, but is the world's. 17 The world is passing away with its lusts, but he who does God's will remains forever.

1 Corinthians 4:1-6
1 Let a man so consider us, as servants of Christ and stewards of the mysteries of God. 2 Moreover it is required in stewards that one be found faithful. 3 But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged by you or by a human court. R11 In fact, I do not even judge myself. 4 For I know of nothing against myself, yet I am not justified by this; but He who judges me is the Lord. 5 Therefore judge nothing before the time, until the Lord comes, who will both bring to light the hidden things of darkness and reveal the counsels of the hearts. Then each one's praise will come from God. 6 Now these things, brethren, I have figuratively transferred to myself and Apollos for your sakes, that you may learn in us not to think beyond what is written, that none of you may be puffed up on behalf of one against the other.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Testimony of a Diaper Fixationist

Why in the world do I put God and Diapers together? The answer is based upon my past, of which I shall now share with you. I was raised in a dead Presbyterian church. The love of money was shared among its members, except for my family who was poor. It was one of those Sunday Suit and Tie things and the kids tended to make fun of us all. Me and my sister saw all this as hypocritical as we did read the Bible. At that time I was also going to an Episcopal private school because my mom taught there and was able to get us in for free. Every Tuesday we would have to take communion and kneel alot on those benches. Basically I got bad religious ideas shoved down my throat at a young age. Their teacher was right, but they never lived in him. Jesus's teachings of love for all mankind and love for all was spoken of in such a sacred manner that there was no such thing as having a real relationship with Him. It was too much routine and it felt like he wasn't alive and we were talking to someone who lived in the past who never answered prayers.

Before I met with this representation of God I met with diapers. By the age of 6 I became fixated on them. I wanted to wear them again, but couldn't because I thought it was wrong. So all I could do was to secretly dwell on diapers. I started not as a diaper fetishist, but much earlier as a diaper fixationist. I was fixated on diapers because my mother still wiped me up until age 6. One night my drunken father put a stop to it but in doing so it traumatized me. Had I been 2 I would've demanded to be put back in diapers. But since I was 6 all I could do was to become fixated on them. I would dream about them and I desired them so much. I held so much in. By the age of 10 I was about to explode. One summer off of church school I became really bored and that was when my past came back to haunt me. I had started praying about wiping. That was when evil came into me. Then when I wasn't praying I was swearing in my head. I wanted to see if God would do anything. Since my parents had divorced by then I had become a latchkey kid I had soo much time to kill. I would watch TV until 5 in the morning. I would swear over and over in my head. I would cry for mercy and then think evil thoughts over and over. I couldn't let anything go. I desired diapers so much that I would make them out of towels and trash bags. I didn't want them for sex, I wanted them for comfort. I was never comforted and needed some. I think though that at the end of the summer I had made up my mind to get things right and not to think about it. I actually practiced thinking about other things and eventually it subsided. I cried alot that summer. Now that I look back I can't but feel sorry for such a mixed up little boy.

Not only did I feel alone, I felt scared and unloved. My mom was worried about her own problems so I didn't dare come to her with mine. My sister was a smart alec who challenged me so I didn't dare appear weak to her. I thought of God as someone who was so powerful that I didn't dare ask him for anything. As far as I was concerned I was on my own. I had to deal with my fascination and fixation on diapers on my own. As I grew up it evolved into a diaper fetish, then full blown infantilism and now it is back to a diaper fetish. Once sensuality is thrown in the mix diapers become elevated as an important part of my being.

So why God and Diapers? Because God did eventually save me. He delivered me out of the bondage of diapers and out of the bondage of all sin. He answered my prayers. Once I came to truly know and trust in him I was no longer part of this world. I understand my flesh is still in bondage and will forever be in bondage, but my spirit is finally free. See when I went crazy at the age of 10 I had tied my spirit in with diapers. Infantilism became my new religion. I would get comfort from diapers. I would get love from wearing them. I would get satisfaction from using them. My spirit would dwell upon diapers all of the time. Nowadays I don't think of diapers as being all important in my life. God has taken over where diapers once were. I became saved just 3 years ago and my life has changed forevermore.

It happened one morning on September 28th, 2002. I was woken up by the sound of my name being called. (I live alone). It was early Sunday morning. I felt a real pull to go to a Church nearby. So I put on a suit and tie and walked into a Baptist Mega church. Where I was wasn't important. It was what the minister said that I still remember to this day:

"There once was this young girl whose father had died when she was young. Her mother passed away as well. She lived her life as a very happy person serving the lord. I asked her - how can you be so happy? Aren't you alone? She answered,"God has always been there. He is my father and mother. I never feel alone and that is why I am happy."

That hit me so hard. I could relate. I had felt like my real parents were dead because I was so sad and alone alot. That day I let all my feelings out in the new member's room. I gave up all of my sin. I prayed the sinner's prayer and asked Jesus to come into my life and be the father I never had. I didn't care anymore about this world. I wanted someone whom I could love unquestionably and who would love me back. I now have that in Jesus Christ.

If you are reading this then you might just know what I am talking about. The feelings of being the only one in the world, of being unloved. I beg you, just try to love God and Jesus and accept them into your heart. Pray for a relationship with Jesus. Pray that you will follow his teachings and will believe and confess of his atonement for your sins. It is not in testing God that you will get your proof. It is in loving God.

Romans 10:5 - 13
For Moses writes that the man who practices the righteousness which is based on law shall live by that righteousness. 6 But the righteousness based on faith speaks as follows: "DO NOT SAY IN YOUR HEART, `WHO WILL ASCEND INTO HEAVEN?' (that is, to bring Christ down), 7 or `WHO WILL DESCEND INTO THE ABYSS ?' (that is, to bring Christ up from the dead)." 8 But what does it say? "THE WORD IS NEAR YOU, IN YOUR MOUTH AND IN YOUR HEART"--that is, the word of faith which we are preaching, 9 that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved; 10 for with the heart a person believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation. 11 For the Scripture says, "WHOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED." 12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, abounding in riches for all who call on Him; 13 for "WHOEVER WILL CALL ON THE NAME OF THE LORD WILL BE SAVED."

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

The Law of Liberty

Today I'd like to talk about the "Law of Liberty". It was said in my first comment the following - "If out of any relationship (including the one with your diapers) causes me to spend less time with Jesus, I should probably cut it out."

I wish it was that simple. Unfortunately the act of "cutting it out" causes me more time with obsessive thoughts about diapers and less time with Jesus. Let's say I can take care of my physical needs in say 10 minutes a day. I have the rest of the time to think about Jesus. Now let's say that I cut it out as I have done so in the past. I was spending hours and hours a day thinking about not wearing diapers or masturvbating. It took soo much time away from Jesus. In the end I had to use the Law of Liberty to allow me to set my mind upon Jesus, of which being saved is a part of.

So here is the Law of Liberty:
James 1:25 - But one who looks intently at the perfect law, the law of liberty, and abides by it, not having become a forgetful hearer but an effectual doer, this man will be blessed in what he does.

John 8:31-36 - 31 So Jesus was saying to those Jews who had believed Him, "If you continue in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; 32 and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free." 33 They answered Him, "We are Abraham's descendants and have never yet been enslaved to anyone; how is it that You say, `You will become free'?" 34 Jesus answered them, "Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin. 35 "The slave does not remain in the house forever; the son does remain forever. 36 "So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.

So the Law of Liberty is this: Jesus has freed us from all our sin, PAST, PRESENT and FUTURE. Once I was saved I became completely free. Keep in mind this is not a "right to sin" liberty. It is a liberty to not be in bondage to sin. Romans really talks about the flesh and sin as well. In it we can see that those who are in bondage and dwell upon the flesh are committing the greater sin. If I do not dwell upon my fleshly sin, such as mastervating and diapers and I keep my mind set upon God then I have truly divorced myself from this world even though my flesh still participates. Romans deals heavily with the flesh. Of which this book is usually seen as reason to not do something. In reality it can be a reason to do something a little so that our spirits will stop being in bondage to the thoughts of this world. The key in any kind of action that separates us from God is to separate our hearts from the action. If the action is able to be stopped then that is the best. If the action cannot be stopped(such as mastervating), then let it go quickly and always stay focused on God. Even when you do wear diapers and mastverbate keep your mind on God always and remember since you are in Christ Jesus, you cannot be condemned. Desire to be together. Desire to never be separate from His Love. Desire that your flesh lose its appeal and that your heart gain favor with the Lord.

Romans 8:1-9 - 1 Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. 2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death. 3 For what the Law could not do, weak as it was through the flesh, God did: sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and as an offering for sin, He condemned sin in the flesh, 4 so that the requirement of the Law might be fulfilled in us, who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. 5 For those who are according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. 6 For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, 7 because the mind set on the flesh is hostile toward God; for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so, 8 and those who are in the flesh cannot please God. 9 However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him.

I end with a message of hope. The disciples themselves dealt with the flesh. Jesus commanded them 3 times to stay awake with him and 3 times they slept. Of which Jesus says,"The Spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak." Peter was told he would deny Jesus 3 times. And he did out of fear for his own flesh. In the end Jesus wants us to love Him moreso than any kind of abstinence as a remediation of our fleshly weaknesses:

John 21:15-19 - 15 So when they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon, son of John, do you love Me more than these?" He said to Him, "Yes, Lord; You know that I love You." He said to him, "Tend My lambs." 16 He said to him again a second time, "Simon, son of John, do you love Me?" He said to Him, "Yes, Lord; You know that I love You." He said to him, "Shepherd My sheep." 17 He said to him the third time, "Simon, son of John, do you love Me?" Peter was grieved because He said to him the third time, "Do you love Me?" And he said to Him, "Lord, You know all things; You know that I love You." Jesus said to him, "Tend My sheep.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Is Diaper Wearing a Sin?

Did you ever see the episode of "CSI" called "King Baby" where the guy who died was an adult baby. Basically it went through many aspects of being an Adult Baby and it showed us in a close to realistic light. One thing that was thrown out very quickly I would like to talk about. His mommy said,"He explained to me that it was in the Bible and I was to clean him." This is not the first time I have heard someone reference how infantilism is in the Bible. So my question was, "where?" Offhand I believe they are actually talking about Bittergrey's website. It is my belief that normal people of faith stumble across websites that deal with God and diapers and assume that somehow we have married the two and we preach to people to wear diapers. Basically they don't get it at all. The idea behind these websites are to preach to people who ALREADY are wearing diapers. I am doing this site because I feel that God has called me to help the Adult Babies and lead them out of despair. I am not saying to be saved you must wear a diaper. That would be wrong. So let's take a gander at some biblical truths and lessons. Since I am IRL a software engineer I will pull these together logically the way a program would be written.

1. Is diaper wearing a sin? Is being a baby a sin?
That is easy. No. Nowhere in the Bible does it ever mention that adults wearing diapers or "swaddling cloth" is sinful. Jesus we all know is without sin.
Jesus was wrapped in swaddling cloth and was a baby at one time. He soiled himself many times. Being a baby must not be sinful. Therefore the conclusion is that such things are not sinful. It can't be sinful at any age either. There are no laws regarding age and sin except for the old Jewish traditions. Since it is not sinful to be a baby at a young age therefore it must not be sinful to be a baby at any age.

However, A Big However. As a Christian the law of God is increased. It is no longer based upon the physical world but upon the heart. In the Old Testament adultery was wrong. Jesus increased this and made it of the heart by saying that any man who lusts after a woman is committing adultery. He changed the definition of adultery from the physical lust of a married person to the heartfelt lust of a married person. Keep in mind adulterer's still have to have something to do with marriage. He also changed the definition of "sin" to be more than disobeying in the physical world. Sin is now disobeying in one's heart. That's great you say. Then why did you say the answer is "no". Because the only logical definition of what adultery can be is breaking of the marriage covenant in the physical world(OT) or the spiritual world(NT). To add other definitions to it adds to the word of God and is an abomination. (See the last paragraph in the bible). Diapers are an object and are not a married person. Diapers are just underwear. Do you think you are sinning if you enjoy wearing boxers over briefs?

2. So it is ok to pleasure myself?
I Corinthians 15-16
15Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! 16Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, "The two will become one flesh."

Now as our understanding increases so does the responsibility we have to God and our fellow Christians increases as well. I do believe that God does give us time to ourselves. To revitalize and restore our "Temple" as it is. The Bible says our bodies are Temples of the Holy Spirit. It mentions uniting it with a prostitute and how that is wrong. I believe this to be so. However, Anti-masturbatory people add to the Bible again and say that any kind of release is wrong. Nowhere in the Bible is masturbation mentioned as a sin. The first part about our bodies being a temple is used in parables that Jesus teaches. Most of them are related to the spiritual world and not the physical world. To start with, the foundation that we build upon must be solid. That foundation is the Rock which is the Cornerstone which is Jesus Christ. Before I go any further. If your foundation is built upon money, looks, wealth, diapers, envy, deceit, games, movies, or tv then when the storm comes you will be blown away. I ask you to reconsider having Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior. More directions can be found here.

Back to the temple. If the passage talks about the physical world (which I believe it does since it mentions the flesh) then one is to assume they are talking about health. The definition of health does change over time. I can just imagine ancient Christians putting leaches all over their bodies and talk about how they are cleansing their temple. Now we know that was not healthy, but the problem was that mankind is only beginning to learn how to be healthy. It used to be thought of as fat people being healthy. We now know the exact opposite. The conclusion is that in the medical field of today masturbation is seen as a healthy thing to do. Therefore if one is to follow the Word then one is try to be healthy in all things and that includes healthy masturbation as well as dieting.

Also, the New Testament is a mirror of the Old Testament. Practically everything that happened in Jesus's life and practically every letter in the New Testament has scriptural significance relating to the old testament.

"But at the beginning of creation God made them male and female. For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. So they are no longer two, but one." Mark 10:6-8 NIV

A key word is Flesh. You cannot become "one flesh from two" with masturbation or with diapers. It is physically impossible. Any additions to this is an abomination as well. See people like to think that being sexually immoral has something to do with their own genitalia, when really it has something to do with what you perceive other's genitalia as(like looking at porn) and what you do with other's genitalia(like sleeping with a prostitute) or what you desire to happen to your genitalia from their genitalia(lust). That is why the Bible is very clear that those are sins.

The Bible is not clear at all about our personal needs and this has to be so because all of our parts, all of our brain, all of our hypothalamus and hormones were carefully thought out and planned by God. He created everything. For us to assume that we are not to manually incite our own testerone when puberty hits and feel our own sexual elation in our brain is to assume that God's workmanship is flawed. God gave us opposable thumbs. He gave us the ability to release on our own. Not as a test, but as a way of avoiding the things which really are sin(see previous paragraph). I find that when I release I do not think about women, or genitalia or desire sex. If you look at it like this then you will realize that 10 minutes in the evening can give you purity all day.

3. So I can just go off and be an Adult Baby all the time, no consequences? God won't judge me for it?
Listen, I do not know your heart. Only you do. The most important things in the whole universe throughout time deal with the heart and specifically love. If you Love God without your heart, body and soul and you Love your Neighbor as you love yourself and you love Jesus and accept him as your personal savior and you even love those who persecute you and are your enemies then what is diaper to that?

As for God's judgement. Well let's just say this. God destroyed Israel countless number of times for breaking just one commandment about idolatry. How many of us have lied? If we were to take on God's judgement everyone on earth throughout time would go to hell. I say this because it is written in the bible. I am no one to proclaim anything of God's Judgement. I just read the bible and try to understands God's will. What I have written here today could've condemned me if it was wrong. But my belief is in Jesus Christ and something that he offered all of mankind:

Grace, LovingKindness and Forgiveness of all sins, past, present and future.

His grace and mercy demands respect. This respect comes to a healthy fear of God, which is justified. God can still chastise Christians for disobeying his words. How do you know if you fear God? You must become humble and abide in him. That is the way to truth. Jesus is the light. He came into the world to save it and not condemn it. That is why Christians can be free. We are not free from sin, but we are free from death. Jesus died and rose up from the dead to prove it.

So as you continue on trying to understand God and diapers and sin just remember to not dwell too much on sin. Quit spending your time thinking about sin and think about love instead. It is love that frees us.

--"Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute,if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, let your mind dwell on these things." (Philippians 4:8)

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

God will eventually cure Infantilism

Now don't get me wrong. I am 30 years old and have been into diapers since I was 6. That is 24 years of being obsessed. There is no turning back for me. However, I believe if I was caught at a young age I could've been helped. Definitely before puberty is the best time to have a chance at a cure. That is because the sexual libido is not associated with diapers. As time goes on you will get more and more into it until diapers become a required part of your sexuality. I've learned to love em. So now, how does God fit in with all of this? How in the world can God love a fetishist? The answer is he loves us all. You see there is a very narrow path that a Christian can walk where their lives are not the healthiest yet their spirituality is. You basically have to divorce yourself from everything of this earth. Nothing matters anymore, not diapers, not money, not pride, not love from anyone. The only thing that matters is the will of God and how you must fear him. So don't I fear God's wrath?? Yes I do, very much so. We've had many a talk and he has shown me that removing diapers will be the last step in my walk. I must have patience. I must let his will be done on his time. The only way for me to have major spiritual victories is to start with the small ones and win them for God's glory. The time will come when I sacrifice my whole being for the will of God. And that is when I will be at the crossroads. So for now, hold steadfast to your faith. Hold on to God's Love. Always dwell upon the good things of God and pray continuously for the Will of God to be done. Ask for protection from Evil. Do all these things in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Jesus Loves the Adult Babies

This blog is made for Christians who are infantilists. It is built for those who have found Jesus and want to fulfill the will of God and yet have to live with infantilism. I am such a person. I have to live with infantilism the same way a disabled person has to live with a wheelchair. The same way an obsessive compulsive person has to live with OCD. I believe that infantilism is a disease that cannot be cured and must be maintained. It must be limited and taken as a disability. Some people say sin is the disease and we are free from Sin through Jesus Christ. I completely agree. However, just because you are free does not mean you are capable. I am completely free to never wear diapers or think about diapers again. That is a freedom I have in America and in Jesus. But I am not at all capable of doing so. I have tried over and over again and always fail. The desire is so ingrained in my being that to not wear diapers for an extended period of time would cause my whole body and soul great distress. I became obsessed and depressed and my life was in ruins. I realized that I was physically not capable of removing infantilism from my life. I then thought God could do it. That was the last time I quit. I studied sexual addiction books, even joining a freedom from sex sin group and prayed and prayed and became really close to God. I still know that God can remove all of my infantilism if he desires. But I have free will and that will is not capable of resisting diapers. I basically have thrown myself at God saying "Your will be done, if infantilism is bad remove it from my thoughts and desires, you are more important than anything." Yet it is not removed. And then Peace Envelopes me. I have no worry. The grace of God contains all. Since I believe in the sacrifice of Jesus Christ and I can never obtain perfection then I am saved. Diapers make no difference. I will continue to wear them until I go to heaven and leave the flesh behind. When I was saved I was damaged goods. On earth I will always be damaged, but my heart has changed forever. I am not trying to convince anyone of anything with this blog. I am just calling reality out. I am not struggling and I am so very thankful to God for peace and good will. I ask that as you read and make comments you tread lightly and always think,"What if it was me?" Then you will be humbled by what we talk about. I pray that those that come here will gained a Godly perspective on infantilism and learn that it is something to weather the storm of the world. In the end it will die, and you will live.

What the Bible Says About Infantilism