Of God and Diapers

This blog deals with God and diapers. It is written for all Christians who have a diaper fixation. It is my hope that all who read it come away a Christian. Despite diapers you can be saved. God loves the Adult Babies too.


I am a Wh/M/31 successful infantilist who was saved in 2002. I feel that God has called me to be a light to the Adult Babies of the world.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Praise the Lord, We Are Free In Christ!

This week I would like to give a big bible session and talk about the passages as they relate to Adult Babies and Diaper wearing. It relates to everything, but since that is our main focus these passages fit in nicely. Salvation in Jesus is key to understanding these. You must believe in Jesus Christ as God's only begotten Son who was a Living Sacrifice for all of your sin in order to truly understand the point of most of these.

The first one is for those whose are struggling. God does not want you to struggle. If you have "quit" and have been struggling for years, think about how your heart is troubled and realize that you need to change your heart. Sometimes the only way to change it is to go back to diapers. But realize this - going back to diapers is something you have to have complete faith in that it a not a sin. Otherwise your own conscience will condemn you.

John 14:25-27
25 "These things I have spoken to you while abiding with you. 26 "But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you. 27 "Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.

This next passage is also on worry and how we should not worry about sin anymore. Especially "CLOTHING" and in the end that is all a diaper is, clothing.
Matthew 6:25-34
25 "For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 "Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 "And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 28 "And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29 yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30 "But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31 "Do not worry then, saying, `What will we eat?' or `What will we drink?' or `What will we wear for clothing?' 32 "For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

The next passage is a liberty passage. Really, all things are lawful. Make sure you understand that to its fullest potential before you relieve your physical discomfort. And make sure it is God dominating your life and not diapers.
1 Corinthians 6:12
12 "All things are lawful for me," but not all things are beneficial. "All things are lawful for me," but I will not be dominated by anything.

The next passage is another liberty passage. Hmmm, I used to think diapers and masturb made me ritualistically unclean and a sinner. By just thinking like that it became true. So what I say is this - you must truly believe in all your heart that your faith in the mercy of God through Jesus saves you completely. In order to do that you must truly believe that diaper wearing/using does not make you unclean.
Romans 14:14,22
14 I know and am persuaded in the Lord Jesus that nothing is unclean in itself; but it is unclean for anyone who thinks it unclean.
22 The faith that you have, have as your own conviction before God. Blessed are those who have no reason to condemn themselves because of what they approve. 23 But those who have doubts are condemned if they eat, because they do not act from faith; for whatever does not proceed from faith is sin.

Here it is. This is the passage where wikipedia references as supporting Infantilism even though they can't seem to find it. It is basically about how even though Joshua was wearing dirty clothes before God and Satan it was God that rebuked Satan for going after him. Then the Lord had the angels CHANGE Joshua's clothes just like a babies. That is the ritual. And that is why taken to an extreme diaper wearing and using and being changed by someone else is symbolic of God taking our guilt away from us. (It is a stretch but it does fit).
Zechariah 3:1-5
1 Then he showed me the high priest Joshua standing before the angel of the LORD, and Satan standing at his right hand to accuse him. 2And the LORD said to Satan, "The LORD rebuke you, O Satan! The LORD who has chosen Jerusalem rebuke you! Is not this man a brand plucked from the fire?" 3Now Joshua was dressed with filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. 4The angel said to those who were standing before him, "Take off his filthy clothes." And to him he said, "See, I have taken your guilt away from you, and I will clothe you with festal apparel." 5And I said, "Let them put a clean turban on his head." So they put a clean turban on his head and clothed him with the apparel; and the angel of the LORD was standing by.

The next passages show that it was Jesus set an example of 2 things - cleanliness and servitude. Jesus cleansed the disciples feet and them from their sin and he also showed how we should serve each other in spreading the message of Salvation.
John 13:12-17
12 After he had washed their feet, had put on his robe, and had returned to the table, he said to them, "Do you know what I have done to you? 13 You call me Teacher and Lord - and you are right, for that is what I am. 14 So if I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another's feet. 15 For I have set you an example, that you also should do as I have done to you. 16 Very truly, I tell you, servants F109 are not greater than their master, nor are messengers greater than the one who sent them. 17 If you know these things, you are blessed if you do them.

This next passage talks about how Peter was shown in a vision that it was OK for Jewish Christians to eat meat that wasn't kosher. This deals in diapers in that it shows how God is all things to all people so that EVERYONE can be saved, even Adult Babies.
Acts 11:2,6-9
2So when Peter went up to Jerusalem, the circumcised believersb criticized him, 3saying, "Why did you go to uncircumcised men and eat with them?"
6As I looked at it closely I saw four-footed animals, beasts of prey, reptiles, and birds of the air. 7I also heard a voice saying to me, 'Get up, Peter; kill and eat.' 8But I replied, 'By no means, Lord; for nothing profane or unclean has ever entered my mouth.' 9But a second time the voice answered from heaven, 'What God has made clean, you must not call profane.'
This passage deals with how we can become clean through the blood of Jesus Christ. We should have confidence in it. I am sure that if you believe you are going to hell because you like diapers then you are NOT saved. You MUST believe you are going to heaven because you believe Jesus was God's sacrifice for ALL your unclean sin. You must add your AB/DL behavior to the list of what God has made clean.
Hebrews 10:19-25
19 Therefore, my friends, since we have confidence to enter the sanctuary by the blood of Jesus, 20 by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain (that is, through his flesh), 21 and since we have a great priest over the house of God, 22 let us approach with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. 23 Let us hold fast to the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who has promised is faithful. 24 And let us consider how to provoke one another to love and good deeds, 25 not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

Study those passages. Think about them. Pray about them. Now do you really think if you wear diapers for fun until the day you die that it means anything at all to God? Personally, I see freedom in Christ. I see that Loving God and Serving Others is paramount to everything. For instance you might just think of me as a normal AB like you. But what if I told you I was a philanthropist and gave to the poor, and even fed the poor. If my loving actions and servant character make a difference in just how you perceive me think about what a difference it makes to God. Try and be like Jesus and Love God and all other laws will fall into place without having to worry. Praise The Lord!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Let God's Love Illuminate Your Closet

Here is the post. The post where I spill the beans so to speak and get to the heart of being brave about God and diapers. I think it is obvious by my writings that I am obsessed about them. Something to note is that in real life I also am full of fear. Fear is only a good thing when it is a fear of God. All other fear is not needed.

For the past 4 weeks I have been doing what we in the ABDL community call "24/7" which means I always wear diapers. To bed, to work, to church and hanging around my friends. It is now a legitimate lifestyle. I think God has really lead me into this state to teach me a lesson or to get me out of my repressive shell. I also recently went on a business trip to Prague. I posted the following post of my adventures:

I've been 24/7 for four weeks straight so far and am still loving it. The only part I feel uncomfortable about is changing my diaper at work. Lately I've been wearing abena at work and haven't been changing for over 10 hours. I know I need to get past this, just because 10 hours in a wet diaper is bound to give me a rash. The technique I use:

1. Abena - really does hold 10 hours of pee
2. Diaper elastic - basically go to walmart and get those strips of elastic from the fabric section and get some diaper pins. I created 2 belts that are very tight and are held together with the diaper pins. I don't even have to undo the pins, because they are elastic I can pull the 2 belts on over the diaper tapes - Thus their tightness will hold the diaper together even if the tapes fail(abenas tapes sometimes do). When I change I pull the belts up to my chest so they are out of the way.
3. Plastic pants - makes the diaper produce no noise whatsoever and helps prevent leaks
4. Onesie - holds the diaper up, also prevents the diaper from sticking out of the top of my pants. I think a coworker might've got a good look one time when I wasn't wearing a onesie(hasn't said anything)
5. Long untucked shirts - they hide leaks if they occur (hasn't happened yet)
6. Dark jeans or Dockers stain proof - hides leaks if they occur

The only problem is that plastic pants over diapers can cause a rash. The only way to prevent it is to change every 5 hours instead of 10. And that is why I need to accept that I might get noticed when I bring a gym bag to my cube and the bathroom. I don't poo either, I choose to do it whenever I change my diaper. However I think as a result I've become a little constipated, but that's another story.

After I worked out all of the logistics I can say that wearing all of the time definitely has its advantages. For me, it just feels like I should have been doing this all along. They are just a different type of underwear and they feel oh so comfortable. For the longest time (24 years) I desired to be normal so much that I hid everything. I even had low self esteem for fear of discovery. When I finally truly accepted who I was I was able to quit wearing underwear and wear diapers whenever I wanted. I should've done this years ago. My thoughts are either I will accept it as my lifestyle or I will get sick of it and quit altogether. Right now complete acceptance seems to be the way to go. I recommend trying 24/7 for those of you struggling with personal acceptance. I've tried many techniques of 24/7 as well:
1. Just peeing all of the time in them
2. Going to the potty as well (didn't like that)
3. Hiding my diapers in my car and going to get them and finding a bathroom away from work to change(too much work)

I've been all over in diapers now. I went to Prague a couple of weeks ago and had to change on the airplane. That was the biggest hurdle for me. Standing up, pulling out my overhead bag and pulling out a fresh diaper and baby powder. I did it and went into the bathroom and changed. The bathroom was in the middle of the plane so there were about 100 people looking at me as I was trying to figure out how to open the bathroom door. I put the wet one in the trash in the bathroom. Basically I was scared soo much before I did it. I had to psych myself up to do it. I told myself over and over things like "They already know, they already know" and "you don't know them anyways" and "They'll feel sorry for you instead of make fun of you." and "If you don't change you will be in physical pain from a rash." That was when my diaper started feeling so uncomfortable I got up and did it.

That week I even went into pharmacies and tried to buy diapers. Apparently people in Prague don't wear diapers. Finally I went to the counter, took out the side of my diaper from the pants and pointed at it to show the lady what I wanted. She was nice enough to get me some tenas and put it in a clear bag and put newspapers around it so I wouldn't be embarassed as I went back to the hotel on the trams. I walked all throughout Prague with a case of diapers and it was very liberating. In the end I realized that I could not help enjoying diapers and I should not stop. It makes no difference to most people anyways. I am the one wearing diapers not them. They might laugh but I must accept the good with the bad. So far, so good.
So now you get an idea of what I have been going through. Just this morning God gave me some scripture to ponder about being brave:
Jeremiah 20:9
But if I say, “I will not mention him or speak any more in his name,”
his word is in my heart like a burning fire, shut up in my bones,
I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.

You see what He is telling me. I can no longer hold who I really am inside. God and Diapers are in my heart like a burning fire. I have accepted Jesus has my Lord and Savior and I have accepted diapers as a lifestyle. I can no longer hold any of it in. It is time to stop being so afraid. I must say to myself the following "mantras" so to speak. The things which I repeat over and over will serve to psych me up so that I will be prepared for any persecution to come my way.

"I am a Christian. I must not fear condemnation from others"
"I must not fear what others think of me."
"I must not fear changing in the restroom or noises the changing makes."
"I will die a Christian who wears diapers."
"If people ask me about what's in my bag it is none of their business."
"If they straight out ask me if I wear diapers it is none of their business."
"If people hear me change or see me leak than that is life and I must not be afraid."
"I can no longer hide the fact that I wear diapers and am a Christian."
"If my family doesn't accept me then that is their problem and not mine."
"If I lose friends then they were never friends to begin with."
"They Already Know or suspect."
"I cannot be caught as I am doing nothing wrong. All I can be is noticed."
"As long as I am true to myself and true to God all other judgement is not valid."

The world is full of different people trying to find happiness in their own way or the same way as their parents and friends. We all have to live together. But we also have to be happy in doing so. I have built diapers up in my mind way too much and have lived in fear. Secrets are not good. The light of God shines through the darkness and exposes them. Since I am doing nothing wrong it is time to let God's light shine. The devil has lead me to darkness and separated me from God. I no longer desire for that to be. I know I will be persecuted, but at least I will be myself. See I should not fear the light. If I fear the light then I live in darkness. Is your diaper wearing a secret? Do you know that that secret is in darkness and Satan will bind you to it. You don't have to go on like this. Let God's light shine in all areas of your life, pray for guidance and He will lead you on the right path.

Psalm 27:1
The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread?

John 3:20
For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.

Mathew 10:26-28
"Therefore do not fear them, for there is nothing concealed that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. 27 "What I tell you in the darkness, speak in the light; and what you hear whispered in your ear, proclaim upon the housetops. 28 "Do not fear those who kill the body but are unable to kill the soul; but rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

1 Corinthians 4:5
Therefore do not go on passing judgment before the time, but wait until the Lord comes who will both bring to light the things hidden in the darkness and disclose the motives of men's hearts; and then each man's praise will come to him from God.

Psalm 112:4
4 Light arises in the darkness for the upright; He is gracious and compassionate and righteous.