Of God and Diapers

This blog deals with God and diapers. It is written for all Christians who have a diaper fixation. It is my hope that all who read it come away a Christian. Despite diapers you can be saved. God loves the Adult Babies too.


I am a Wh/M/31 successful infantilist who was saved in 2002. I feel that God has called me to be a light to the Adult Babies of the world.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Jesus Loves the Adult Babies

This blog is made for Christians who are infantilists. It is built for those who have found Jesus and want to fulfill the will of God and yet have to live with infantilism. I am such a person. I have to live with infantilism the same way a disabled person has to live with a wheelchair. The same way an obsessive compulsive person has to live with OCD. I believe that infantilism is a disease that cannot be cured and must be maintained. It must be limited and taken as a disability. Some people say sin is the disease and we are free from Sin through Jesus Christ. I completely agree. However, just because you are free does not mean you are capable. I am completely free to never wear diapers or think about diapers again. That is a freedom I have in America and in Jesus. But I am not at all capable of doing so. I have tried over and over again and always fail. The desire is so ingrained in my being that to not wear diapers for an extended period of time would cause my whole body and soul great distress. I became obsessed and depressed and my life was in ruins. I realized that I was physically not capable of removing infantilism from my life. I then thought God could do it. That was the last time I quit. I studied sexual addiction books, even joining a freedom from sex sin group and prayed and prayed and became really close to God. I still know that God can remove all of my infantilism if he desires. But I have free will and that will is not capable of resisting diapers. I basically have thrown myself at God saying "Your will be done, if infantilism is bad remove it from my thoughts and desires, you are more important than anything." Yet it is not removed. And then Peace Envelopes me. I have no worry. The grace of God contains all. Since I believe in the sacrifice of Jesus Christ and I can never obtain perfection then I am saved. Diapers make no difference. I will continue to wear them until I go to heaven and leave the flesh behind. When I was saved I was damaged goods. On earth I will always be damaged, but my heart has changed forever. I am not trying to convince anyone of anything with this blog. I am just calling reality out. I am not struggling and I am so very thankful to God for peace and good will. I ask that as you read and make comments you tread lightly and always think,"What if it was me?" Then you will be humbled by what we talk about. I pray that those that come here will gained a Godly perspective on infantilism and learn that it is something to weather the storm of the world. In the end it will die, and you will live.

What the Bible Says About Infantilism


Blogger Sammy said...

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5:02 AM  
Blogger Sammy said...

I'm not very religious im afraid so I may be getting the wrong end of the stick, but didnt someone in the bible once say something about looking at the world as if looking through the eyes of a child? I find embracing the baby part of me helps me to see things with freeness and wonder again. I dont see my infantilism as a curse or an illness. I love who I am. hope I havent offended you.

5:03 AM  
Blogger Pooh Bear said...

Hi Baby Brian,

I am also a Christian ABDL and have been since I was five. I have read a lot of your postings (here) and I certainly appreciate what you have done here.

I have struggled myself for thirty-seven years on what to do about this condition and whether it is sinful or not. I am finally learning to accept who I am - as it relates to my life in Christ. I recently began my own blog (though I have not yet posted) and just want to encourage you to keep on.

God Bless You,

Pooh (aka Michael)

11:03 PM  
Blogger Thomas Dickensheets said...

I'm a Christian, and I know Jesus loves me. I'm a Adult baby. I want to wear diapers. I'm afaid what others think. I didn't tell my dad, he won't understand. I didn't tell my church. Please help me. Pray for me. I need a job.

7:54 PM  
Blogger Thomas Dickensheets said...

Is adult babies doing sexual fetish?


7:06 PM  
Blogger StevieSweet said...

Christian AB
Jesus himself was not only a baby going thru difficulties in that Christmas story.
There's one bible story of him as a child aged twelve, very independent of his mum
and dad, and later (Mark chapter 3 verse 21) his own family are trying to get him put
away: something must have roused their concerns!
Now I would never suggest Jesus was AB, but neither was he mainstream, didn't
he walk on water?
Then he had this feet fetish, not only wiping his friends' feet but on several
occasions having a loose woman draping her hair on his feet and pouring oil on them.
Jesus certainly met those who were not mainstream... as well as the young because
when they bought babes to him he said those well known lines Suffer the Little
More importantly, he actually told adults that if we want to see God, you must
become like little children. So I believe Jesus when he was on earth did know all
about those things we care for, and today we can pray to him in heaven he does listen
and understand just what it feels like to be AB.
He prayed, 'I thank you, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hid
these things from the wise and prudent, and have revealed them to babes.' God's
kingdom doesn't exclude anyone, certainly not those who are prepared to be like
I have found Jesus does help one AB, try him yourself, he'll never turn you away. AB
is a starting point to real reality

12:10 PM  
Blogger Sparkle! said...

This is old, but maybe you still come back and read it sometimes.

I'm sorry, but your thinking on this blog is so muddled I can't make head or tails of what you are trying to say. You moan that your prayed to God to remove the AB ideas from you one second, and in the next paragraph you say it isn't a sin. You never put your feet down firmly and either say, yes it is sin, or no, it is not. If it isn't a sin, why would you be moaning to God about removing it?

Then you say you are an AB because you are damaged goods. You imply that all ABs have a mental disease. I can't tell you how insulting that was.

I think you need to figure out who you are and what you really believe before trying to "help" anyone else. This blog would just confuse them more.

9:35 PM  
Blogger PATRICK said...

bonjour les BEBES! AH!! si seulement ,vous aviez raison! Je suis moi-meme bebe adulte,mais en rien je mele la bible à cette démarche ,la bible ,il faut la lire avec l'intelligence de l'ESPRIT de DIEU,dans un etat d'esprit renouvellé,chaque jour ,chaque nuit,;
alors que ma condition de bébé adulte ,je la porte comme une croix,comme un fardeau pesant,c'est dur d'ouvrir les yeux sur soit,et réaliser,combien ma peine est grande..

hello babies!!

so only;you where right!, i am myself; an AB ,but of nothing, i miss the bible with this step, is should be read with, understanding, with the intelligence of the spirit of GOD,in a frame of mind renewed, each day and harms each moment ,then ,that my condition of AB, I CARRY it like a cross...ô!! how much my sorrow is large..

god bless you( tel : 0625 25 73 56) email:patricks75015@gmail.com

10:52 AM  
Blogger Jolanda said...

I am the wife of an adult baby. Very difficult. I am also a Christian and so is my husband. I do believe that if you are a child of God, you are saved. I also believe that AB is an oppression that must be extremely difficult to carry. I further believe that God has the power to release someone from being an AB through people of God who has been given the power to deal with this and help ABies to come free, should they want to - only should they want to. I also believe that some Christians will live with this forever. Although it does not influence their salvation, it does influence their own and their families' happiness - which is big challenge. It is a very difficult situation to handle and in my life it has really been challenging my commitment to my husband. Through God's help I have managed to in a certain way "overlook" and carry on - not possible without the love and care of our God.

12:55 AM  
Blogger tin tanael said...

I am a Christian, I love JESUS. Been loving HIM for more than 20 years of my life. In 6 months or so, I will be maarying my fiancee who has leaning on ABism. It was shocking in the beginning, but I guess, having experienced how CHRIST accepted me, the whole me, there's much grace given to me, not only to accept my fiancee fully, but to enjoy his AB characteristics. I'm actually on the lookout for nice babyish things for him, and I love it that he calls me mommy! He's so adorable :) On the other hand, we keep things balanced. We make sure that ABism, although we have talked about adding some elements of it in our lifestyle, would not dictate the kind of relationship we have. We would still be first and foremost husband and wife... He'll just be my baby and I his mommy for as long as we're both having fun with it. And we are:) Can't wait to be married so I can actually change his diapers.:)

While I believe that this fallen world has caused people to have such interests, I believe that it should not hinder anyone from following CHRIST, nor should it be a basis of one's identity. ABism is just a part of the whole person, not the totality of the person. After all, doesn't everyone have "eccentricities"? We learn to accept and live with those (for as long as it is not listed as sin) and fix our eyes on JESUS. I believe we one can be an AB and have a heart that loves JESUS-- and that JESUS delights in.

4:06 AM  
Blogger Baby DinoM37 said...

Dear Baby Brian

I first want to thank you for your amazing blog.I too an an infalist and an I have found a quite old song by hillsong that is called majesty and one line in the lyrics that I believe fits very will with the subject infantilists the line in the song is
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed but alive in Your hands. This is my belief that God just line said God has accepted us just as we are including infantilists
I hope that this sheds some more light for the other people reading you Blog.

Many thanks
Dino (AKA Baby_D)

3:54 PM  
Blogger DommeBadKitty said...

i am writing a book to help the adult world understand adult babies ( i am an adult mommie to 3 adult babies- zoe, crissy and brandon. I am so proud of my little family and i want to help the world understand more about my babies and i have heard so many time show we are perverting God's thoughts on the world if any one would like to help with this project please email me at DommeBadKitty@hotmail.com put Help Mommie in the subject line thankyou
any money made with this book goes to benifit adult babies in the usa!!

3:56 PM  
Blogger Ryan F said...

It was very comforting reading your blog on this and I too, in my flesh, have a diaper fetish. Now I have struggled immensely over it- shame, and so on. The biggest part of the struggle is that I want to pursue sexual purity, and my convictions and heart tell me that this simply needs to die. I believe God wants to change our desires, but desires don't stay changed- it must be cultivated by what we feed our thoughts and hearts. The renewing of our mind is a process (Romans 12:2) and I know (at least I believe) for myself that I need to let this go. As 2 Peter 1:6 says- that we have been given everything we need for living a Godly life.

However, I know that I struggle so much with letting it go because I find that there is a calling on my life and from when I first became a christian, I honestly sensed that this diaper fetish needed to go. Unfortunately the process I feel has been very much delayed hah, and even brutal. Truth is I wish I wasn't honestly so convinced I need to let it go, and I really hope that God in truth would just come and give me peace over this. I wonder if it is because of my own shame, perhaps (I want to say this carefully, so take this with a grain of salt) the extreme statements church culture has out on human sexuality, and guilt that I may have convinced myself early on that it needs to go. Then again, Romans 14 tells us that there are personal convictions one may have and that we need to have the attitude if we believe "others-can-I-can-not" but my honest heart I don't want to give up wearing diapers and that I always felt I can never be close to God freely the way I want to unless I let this go. It really is a pain to deal with it.

If you have found peace in your relationship with God over this, then I bless you and pray that the lord's peace will keep precedence over your heart. Keep me in your prayers- I want to be able, and most of all willing to surrender this to The Lord, and just as much if not more, I want The Lord to allow me to have the freedom in our relationship to be able to still wear without shame and guilt.

God bless -

Ryan F

1:12 AM  
Blogger web_2 said...

Brian... Are you still there? I do love god.. I strugle with diapers ... I am a new born christian.. Even a pastors child! A guess what.. I struggled depression and many strange things... And now i am on bed.. I thing i need you.. Because there is no no coincidence in god!

2:15 PM  
Blogger mirmusicmanchester said...

You can't wait to change his diapers??! Seriously??! Damn you are either one desperate woman or he's one lucky guy, holy cow changing a GROWN HAIRY ASS MAN DIAPER sure don't sound like jesus love to me honey! I think u should pray a lil harder lol sound like satan to me! Besides jesus DID say when I.became a man I put all childish things aside...get rid of the weirdo AB is SATAN

6:19 PM  
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9:23 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was sick in 2009 I wet myself like a baby .I started wearing diapers my mom put the diapers in the trash. My mom said if I stared wearing diapers again she'll put a picture of me wearing a diaper on Facebook. In 2010 I started wearing diapers again so my mom took a picture of me wearing a diaper but didn't put it on Facebook. I was wearing a GoodNites diaper & a thermal underwear pajama top that had a frog on the middle on the pajama top. And just the diaper no pajama bottom. I look like a 5 year old toddler still wearing diapers! My mom took a picture of me wearing a diaper & talking to me like a baby my baby sister also talking, laughing & smiling that just made me pee in my diaper! I decided to wear diapers because I do have a very small bladder!

9:23 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

I understand that stopping yourself from wearing diapers is too hard for you, but NOTHING is too hard for God. What is impossible for you is possible for Him. Jesus can effortlessly vanquish what felt like a mountainous burden for us. I use to be addicted to ABDL Fanfiction, but the Lord delivered me. Instead of reading my Bible every morning, I would run straight to Fanfiction. I thought it was my only source of happiness, but I was blind. God enstated a divine intervention and showed me a different way, a better way, because I was destined for greater. You are too. We all are! Please don't view this comment as offensive. I honestly get what you're going through and I really wanted to make the point that there isn't a issue on this Earth that God can't work out. Give it to Him. Also remember to read His Word. The Bible is Jesus' primary way of speaking to us. With whatever conclusion you come to, I know you will be blessed :)

-Love Keturah

12:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I guess I'm a adult baby . I have to wear diapers now . I don't have the problem of wetting myself like a baby .I'm going to wear diapers for the rest of my life!

8:18 PM  
Blogger Baby Chase said...

I am also and ab and into diapers (the more childish the better. I am happy with who i am. I also, just like some of us, have prayed and prayed, and like most havent had the desire of diapers, acting like a toddler or baby, or both have not left. I also for me have had a difficult time swallowing this pill, i am also trying to teach my children to be themselves. For me i went thru my childhood (5-18) being told that diapers was against god and no one would accept me and i was going to hell for it. The passage those people leaned on was, to put away our childish ways. Ihave now accepted who i am (an adult baby, and diaper lover (i love god more than diaper)). Many know bout my diaper side but few have found out bout my ab side

6:07 AM  
Blogger D T said...

just a for your info. we all have problems and stuff we struggle with. and twisting the bible is just wrong. for if your u look slighlty deeper into that verse god was refering to our spiritual walk, our actual relationship with him. i personally have struggled with being an adult baby. but if you look at the world with child like eyes you will see gods love in a deeper sense than you can even imagine. and we all are broken and god forms us to his beautiful art work. being an adult baby is like some one who likes scrabble and goes to scrabble comiptitions (yes misspelled). but just cause you play scrabble doesnt make u part of satan, or satan himself.

7:34 PM  
Blogger D T said...

i have learned to accept myself for being an ab. i went thru binge and purge cycles (more damage than good). those cycles cauee depression. i pray and meditate on word of god dressed like an adult baby.

7:36 PM  
Blogger Fascinating Lady said...

My ABDL interests make me a blessing to many people I would not have come into contact with if I weren't involved. Since I am older and in need of pull-ups I feel it is God's will for my life. I didn't wear them for 35 years until I needed them. I believe they help me be a lot healthier and this glorifies God. I can drink more water without running to the ladies room every five minutes which means I have more energy to serve God and get sick less often.

8:13 PM  

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